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Name: Andrew Musolf
Country: United States
State: Michigan
Birthday: 1/25/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: Poetry, guitar, bass, reading, writing, my relationship with Christ. Oh....and my Fiance TRACY!!!!!!!
Expertise: Ranting and raving, expressing my thoughts and opinions on Christianity, the Church at large, or just life in general
Occupation: Student
Industry: Ministry
Email: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  werdnaflosum
MSN: werdnaflosum@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  werdnaflosum
Member Since:
9/10/2004
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| Playing: Mazzy Star - Fade Into You
Update: I am horrible at keeping up with this thing. I keep thinking that if I were motivated I would start a real blog. And if I had a real blog I would actually keep up with it. But I think that since I failed the test of keeping this one up that I don't deserve a real blog.
Anywho, things to update about. I feel like I spin my wheels and get nothing accomplished. I did finally get my curtains hung up this weekend. I only procrastinated about it for 3 months. So victory dance for me. WooHoo.
My job doesn't take that much out of me, but at the same time it feels like it does. It doesn't make much sense. I like what I do, I at least don't hate what I do. And I just got one promotion and I will probably be getting another one come January. Its something. I also want to move. Part of me wants to go back to Michigan and be near the friends that I left there. The only ones who I manage to still talk to. I love this city here, but I just don't have anything going on other than work. And if I try hard enough I can get a job doing just about anything anywhere. It might not be the greatest job ever but its better than nothing. Then there is the part of me that still desperately hates Michigan and never ever ever ever ever ever want to live there again and feels that 4 hours away is a comfortable distance. I think I'm ready for something new. I still want to be within 2 hours of a major metropolitan area. But I also want a decent lawn to mow and a space for a garden, and I wouldn't mind a dog or two or more. As long as they don't eat my baby kitties, not that Rubius would stand for being eaten. I think I like the idea of Wyoming. Its less than two hours from Denver, which is a bad-ass city. And Cheyenne is a decent enough city where I wouldn't feel like a hick like living back in St. Johns again. True, there is snow, which I desperately still hate. Hell, I live in Indy right now and the snow is about 10% of what it is in Michigan and I still hate it. But I think I can learn to deal. I mean, its Mountain-Snow...that's different right?
I also don't know what kind of dream career I could possibly want. I don't have any lofty goals. I used to but those have faded along with the faith that I used to have. It seems that my passion, and my faith and my convictions and my motivation and my social righteousness were all intermingled and then they kind of all died a horrible horrible death all at once. They have yet to pull a Lazarus on me here so I don't much know what's going on with that.
Lately I've been feeling strangely family oriented. Like I am looking for more than what I have and I'm not finding it and it is depressing to me. I feel incomplete in the situation that I'm in now. I've thought of different ways to remedy this. But nothing seems logical, feasible or what I really want in the end of things.
As of three weeks ago, I have begun work on a new piece of writing, completely different from anything that I've tried to do before. The collection of essays and theological thoughts is still there. But its a bit difficult to write a piece like that when you don't believe in what you are talking about. Even if you know the ideas and understand the teaching, you can't put any fire into it without passion on the subject. So I'm moving away from that for a while. I'm working on what should become a novel sometime in the next year or so. So far I'm pretty impressed with myself for having not attempted actual fiction short of a few short stories before. Perhaps I will post some snippets here and there. Yeah, I think that sounds like a good idea. We'll see if it actually happens. Probably not. But I'll pretend to try. I promise that much.
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| Update:
Ok, not too much of an update today....but I have decided that everyone needs to read this article. If only because it is incredibly funny.
http://www.time.com/time/magazine/article/0,9171,1917728,00.html
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| Playing: Rev Theory - Broken Bones; Rev Theory - You're The One
Update: I'm still working on my essay collection. I haven't had much progress made on it in a long ass time though...
I wrote a new one though. With a bit of editing I will post it for your reading pleasure.
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| Playing: Bruce Springsteen - The Darkness On The Edge Of Town
Update: http://www.indystar.com/article/20090706/LOCAL/907060354/1001/ARCHIVE/Heroin+takes+hold+again+--+with+younger+abusers
This is a truly sad story. As someone who willingly became involved with, abused, became addicted to, and eventually overcame (and still fight with craving and desire on some level) heroin abuse I am truly heartbroken reading that kids are now able to get their hands on it easier than I ever did. Even more so that it is now more readily usable. For so long injection was the method of use, but now putting into form to smoke, take as a pill or even snort just gives people an even better way to destroy themselves.
I do still fight with desire. I can have everything going right in my life or nothing and I still want to see myself crumble into dust. I don't know why and I feel that this addiction, which truly is a lifelong addiction both physically and psychologically, feeds into it.
More and more, I think that I am going to use my degrees to work with drug counseling and rehabilitation programs and work hopefully, in schools and work on prevention programs aimed at kids who are on the already dangerous slope of abuse. I really don't even know where I'd start.
But please, read the article, it is important...and if you know anyone involved with, or showing signs of addiction, reach out to them, they need it more than they realize.
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| Playing: Brave Saint Saturn - Enamel (Unedited Original Mix); Bela Fleck and the Flecktones - Amazing Grace (Instrumental Bass Guitar Solo)
Update:
From Noel via Facebook
http://failuremag.com/index.php/feature/article/the_unlikely_disciple/
I heard about this project a few weeks ago and tagged it as interesting in my head, fully meaning and intending to look into it more and post about it.
Anywho, I think that this interview pretty well speaks for itself. Its always good to encounter someone with a truly open mind.
I hope that more people reach out across what truly is, a culture barrier and attempt to understand the other side. And hopefully, if we're lucky, everyone will start to see everyone else for what they are. Fellow human beings and maybe we can stop demonizing each other and hiding behind legalistic and hypocritical systems while judging each other for either being too sheltered and conservative or for being liberal mosters who are godless and going straight to Hell.
Just my two cents
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